i’m kinda sorta madly fallen in love with you.
i’m pathetic. can’t even accept someone else’s decision because i’m too greedy.
and then i hate myself for it, i just can’t help that my stomach feels inside out when i think about it, or that i just don’t feel like continuing with anything.
i wish i could give up. it would be so much easier.
i just get stupider and more needy by the second.
it turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you wishing i’d realized what i had when you were mine.
its that until the very end no one notices it, someone could be at the very brink of the end and no one notices, know why? because no one wants to be the one who points it out. and so the tragedy ensues. and when no one is standing, at the last curtain call, we figure it all out.
the world will spin and i’ll be here. you will be off finding your adventure, but what will be left for me to hold?
so i’m stuck here. forever. and its not like i don’t want to be, but knowing that the choice was never mind will drive me crazy.
but to be honest the worst part is not knowing how to say that all i really want is to leave, to be free and enjoy the world away from the normal, but asking for that would be too much, because in the end what i need is here. and i need to learn to keep myself content with that.
And through it webs spin, of a history of life, a teenage girls nightmare and everyones reality. While the truth may hurt its the way of things. Truth is, someone will hurt you.
And deeper still, someone will do worse, it may be hard to belive, but i’m telling the truth, you will hurt, break and know there is no where else to turn, but eventually you will see something, a meaning.
TRUST, because no matter how much you are hurt, you would want to be trusted were it you.
HOPE, because without it there is no point.
LOVE, because no matter the pain, it was worth it.
TRY, because even when you fail, you won’t regret it.
won’t be long before i burn out
i can’t seem to follow, or keep with the feed
before long it will blowout
and show my bad deeds.
i could say i’d rap, id keep up the flow.
but to be honest i can’t, trust me i know.
id push it, and try
but in the end its true
i would be better off saying goodbye,
its just what i do.
time comes, time flows
where will it end, no one knows.
to this day i don’t understand
why i can’t keep up with time
why everything is bland.
one day i will wake
and before it all goes
i will feel the mistakes
from the heavy blows.
i chose poorly
with all my chances
now where do i go…
it’s been a long time since i have been on tumblr…
so much has happened…
i missed you tumblr <3
one step left to take, yet miles left to walk
i’m so far from what i want, sometimes i just want to cry.
That shitty moment when you’re scared to lose someone who isn’t even yours.
it has been so long since i’ve gotten on. sorry to anyone who missed me. most of you probably didn’t notice xD
anyway i’m back! yay!
are stupid. fuck them.
i hate how nice guys can be to try to get something from you, know what? fuck you all and have a nice life.
if there was ever such a thing as a good guy, it never existed here.
i don’t think i know you… sorry x.x
unless you happen to live by spring texas